Anybody have experience with this?

So this is a wierd situation. I've found I'm sexually attracted to women after years of asexuality due to depression and repression I believe. At least, I get hard around girls from time to time so I think I'm attracted to them?? Anyways, so my whole life I've always connected best with guys due to a very close group of guys I've known my whole life. I have very little experience with connecting with women due to social akwardness and a hesitancy to really do it. I think I can fall in love with girls and since I'm sexually attracted to them that's better but sometimes I have doubts. My fear of connecting with girls and my social anxiety make me latch onto guys for conversations. Often I like to have a guy with me so I can not face akwardness. What's the deal here because I want to fall in love with a girl, I have sort of before but during the stage of no sexual attraction so it was kind of shallow. I can't really explain it but since guys I connect well with I enjoy their company because I'm relaxed and more mentally stimulated due to being able to talk about whatever. I think a lot with girls around and can't really be myself very well. So any advice? I'd rather not think I am a heterosexual homoromantic because I know I have the capacity to love a girl if I had the balls to take it to that level of vulnerability.